Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Catch Up

JULY 31ST!!!! How is that even possible?

I've had an interesting few weeks and I have so missed my little blog world! I've been doing a lot of introspective work on what time means for me and how I use it and how I view it and how my attitudes toward time (or lack thereof) create situations that I don't enjoy.

This is something I will definitely continue delving into with more detail to come. I still haven't even begun to work it all out, but what it has meant is that I've had to take a step back for a few weeks to sort of regroup and just breathe.

I have about 5 posts at least of stuff to write including an awesome race report from Musselman and a spectator report from Lake Placid last weekend. It's also time to look back on my #project30days for the month to see how that went and come up with some new ones for the month of August.

And I have a day...

However, I'm choosing to not let that stress me out. I'm taking a deep breath and acknowledging that none of this is urgent and it's all going to be here tomorrow and the next day if I don't get it done today.

Look at me, all enlightened and Zen!! :)

So instead of writing 5 blog posts today, I will just write one or two, but first I'm going to the farmer's market to get some juicy peaches and some local honey and the most amazing canteloupe ever, and I might even get some local salad greens and some eggs and cheese and maybe a cookie that is as big as my face (to share, of course!).

Happy summer, friends! What are you up to today?

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Dusk Run


Dusk Run

Pink sky reflected in bright puddles
The leaves brush my hair with tenderness
Moths fly to me like I am
with love and freedom
My essence drips 
tasting of gratitude
on my lips
Dusk into darkness
Fairies light the way
Seen only by accident
I am flowing
Feet not touching the ground
Grounded more than ever in the feeling of
Boundless beauty and glory

July 5, 2013
8:10 p.m.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

What are the desires of your heart?

River Dane.

Since the beginning of spring I have been in a stream - a stream of creativity. I feel like I have come alive and my ideas are flowing around me like water in a brook flowing around my feet. When I have time I just sit down in the stream and let myself float in it as the ideas run over me.

This creativity is also bringing forth action. I am hard at work at several projects right now that I am so excited about! One of them I will be announcing within the next week, so stay tuned for that. What I am realizing, though, is that all of this creativity is streaming from one place - my heart.

And when I really start to dig deep, which I have been doing a lot of lately, I find that my heart and soul guide me in a way I have never realized until now. There is a wonderful verse in the Bible that says, "Rejoice in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." I have always held onto that with the faith that God knows my deepest desires, but I am realizing that if I plug into those desires I can make active choices and decisions in the way I live every day that fulfill those desires.

So what is it that I desire? Do I desire money or a big house or a fancy car? Do I desire attention or praise? Do I desire things I can hold in my hand? To a certain point, yes, but (always the big but) even things or accolades I desire lead to a deeper desire.

They all lead to my desired feelings. How do I want to feel? What do I want to feel? Every day, each hour, minute by minute?

I desire peace.

I want to feel magnetic.

I want to feel engaged.

I want to be authentic.

I want to be strong.

This is how I want to feel. God can give me all of these things, but God also gave me free will. I can make decisions and choices that revolve around these core desired feelings. I have the power to choose how I am going to feel each day.

This has been and still is a revelation to me. Identifying what it is I really desire has opened my heart and mind up to new possibilities. It has helped me realize that perfection has never been something I truly want. It has helped me see I have something to share. I am learning each day to honor myself in all of my interactions with my family, friends and those around me.

I came across this concept of core desired feelings while listening to a podcast interview with Danielle LaPorte. She has written several books and one of them is called The Desire Map. I have found her writing just resonates with what I have always thought and felt about life in general. I highly recommend this book if you are looking to really define what it is you want to feel every day. It is a beautiful, poetic and engaging and has really been a wonderfully intuitive and practical guide for me.

Another amazing link I am seeing with this idea of core desired feelings is within my coaching. For many people, if not most, health, sports, weight loss, nutrition and general wellness are all linked to understanding what it is we desire most. We all want to be healthy, but why do we want to be healthy? How does healthy feel? How does completing a triathlon feel and why do you want to feel that? How does being at your ideal weight feel? Why do you feel better when you eat beautiful whole food instead of junk food? If we can start to identify the core desired feelings than it branches out to all areas of your life.

This, THIS, is exciting to me! This is practical and useful and meaningful! Man, I am pumped up!! Sharing this with you makes me feel ENGAGED and AUTHENTIC!

This is not the last you will hear of this from me! I encourage all of you to take the time to really identify your core desired feelings. You will not regret it!!

Monday, July 1, 2013

#Project30Days: June update and July Projects

Is it really July already?? With the combination of cool temps and tons of rain here in New York, it just doesn't feel like the dog days of summer just yet!

I am still totally immersed in my latest #project30days project which is to learn to enjoy my child. I have found out this month that the best thing I can do as a parent is to be present and always thinking with my child's mind. What would Ryan like? Wouldn't Noah find this interesting? What would make my kids laugh today? How can I surprise them with something totally unexpected? This is definitely a project that has become a habit. Maybe most parents do this all the time, but I certainly needed a brush-up course!

And onto my new projects for July.

1. I love getting up early. The hard thing about getting up early is going to bed early!! So one of my projects this month will be to be in bed no later than 9:30 and lights out no later than 9:45. My hope is this will lead to more quality time in the morning.

2. If you follow me on Facebook, you might have noticed a got a ticket on Saturday for talking on my cell phone. I admit, I'm really bad about this, and I even have a hands free device!! So, for the next 30 days I will not talk on the phone in the car without my hands free. I am also committing to no checking email, weather, or texts while I am driving.

3. The last of my projects for the next 30 days is to do every single thing I say I am going to do. This is an area I struggle with and it really bothers me. I have a tendency to say okay and then immediately know I'm not going to be able to do it the way I want to do it. This is both about being true to my word AND thinking before I say I will do things - two very difficult things.

Is anyone taking on a #project30days this month? Let us know what you are working on!!