It's been a while since I have posted and there are a few reasons.
Number one is that I have been VERY busy.
Number two is that I can't think of much to write about.
That is not to say I haven't had a lot on my mind, but I'm just not sure if you guys would like to hear about it. My head and my heart have been in a bit of a dark place lately, and sometimes it's hard to write about anything else while at the same time you don't really want to write about that at all because then it is out there.
Can I get an amen on that? (I'm writing this on Sunday, so I can preach at you, right?)
I had an interesting conversation with a very good friend of mine this week. We were talking about how, as people, we are constantly evolving and becoming our most authentic selves - well hopefully anyway. There is so much that we carry from events that have happened in our lives and from expectations that we place on ourselves and expectations we think others have placed on us, and sometimes the way we want to be conflicts with the way we think we should be. And all of that might conflict with who we are at this very moment. That is a lot of conflict. I guess what is surprising about it all, is that very rarely in my life have I felt this, and now that I'm 37, you would think I'd have it figured out.
I do think that some people probably are content with just floating along and not really delving into the deepest part of themselves, but I'm pretty sure that is not how God intended us to be. So, I will continue to dig deep and acknowledge all the parts of me, even the parts that aren't so pretty, and work hard to be my best self.